I feel like a complete jerk. I almost did something very bad and hypocritical. I contacted The T and attempted small talk until I got to the point. I asked him to hang out sometime.

My intention was to have sex. All I seemed to think about was the good sex we had those two times, and the better sex we could have since I am more experienced and this time it would just be us. However, he caught on.

“You aren’t inviting me over just to hook up, are you?” he asked through text message. My body immediately washed over with guilt. I saved myself by saying “No, of course not. I just want to talk and catch up.” he was relieved. I, however, am not. I feel like I did the exact thing that I hate people doing to me. That will be the next post…

Give me some love.