This one was really hard for me to think of something to write about. I just had a really hard time thinking of something that I don’t ever want to have to do. I think I am going to have to go with anything to do with death, though some of it is anyone’s worst nightmare, some of it a bit unrealistic.
First off, the most unrealistic part, is me dying. I am terrified of dying. I just hate to think what will happen to my body afterwards. I don’t like the idea of being buried, as it just seems so alone. I also cringe at the idea of cremation, since I hate the idea of burning. It just seems wrong, though it is the cheapest option. I feel bad for whoever will have to sort through my stuff and utilize/trash/donate it. The idea of not dying is very unrealistic, so I will move on to something more realistic.
I hate the idea of losing family members and friends close to me. I hate the idea of losing my parents. I may not get along with them very well sometimes, but I still love them. I know it will happen someday before I go, my dad especially since his health is not in good shape. I will miss him a lot. I also know it will be a pain in the ass to deal with my stepmom when he goes, and the property, etc. This is going to sound very selfish, but besides the fact of hating the idea of losing my mom because she is my mom, she is a hoarder and I hate the idea of having to get rid of her crap. I feel shitty even typing this.
I hate the idea of losing my older cousins. they have done so much for me. They are also very wise and I have learned a lot from them. They tought me to drive when my parents wouldn’t, gave me a job, and helped buy my car.
Most of all, I hope that I never have to bury a child if and when I have kids. That has to be one of the most devastating things one can go through. Words can not describe how painful that would be, and I am sorry for anyone who has lost a child.