Just Can’t Shake The Paranoia

Saturday night I was feeling kind of lonely. I just wanted to make a friend, so I did what I usually do. I went to Craigslist, MfW pages. I found an ad that appealed to me. It sounded like we had tons in common and he didn’t have an specifications on what he was looking for.

I messaged him, and he have been talking ever since. We really did have tons in common and more. The only time we stopped emailing, texting, and chatting was during work and sleep hours, which were the same for both of us.

Last night we had our first phone conversation. We chatted for 3 hours and 42 minutes. I felt comfortable with him. Comfortable enough to where I sent a face pic. He sent one back.

We said our goodnights and I texted him on break. He had done a complete 180. He is not as chatty, doesn’t send emotes like he used to etc. Coincidentally, I felt an impending sense of doom before I even talked to him.

Now, I would like to think that the reason he is not as chatty is because we are both exhausted from only getting a few hours of sleep. Honestly, I am not that chatty either, but more because I have a huge sense of dread that the fun is over before I even meet the guy.

I just can’t help but feel paranoid that he was over it when he saw my picture.

Give me some love.