The Good, the Conflict, and the Potential

I know that my updating has become quite sporadic, and I apologize. A combination of being busy (I have a social life now, believe it or not) and not much to say. I was paranoid about Andy finding my blog, though I don’t think he would have cared too much.

As of last night, Andy and I are no more. He is moving out of the area and neither of us wanted long distance. He doesn’t feel like it works, and I had been wanting to end things for a while anyways. For the most part I was happy, but the other part I was miserable.

Things became even more complicated when I started to develop feelings for one of my coworkers, now friend. I am pretty sure he likes me too, but we are both too shy to admit it. We are always complimenting each other, flirting, and dropping innuendos. Around him we can talk forever or sit in silence and we are both content enjoying each other’s company. With him, the hours feel like minutes and the minutes feel like seconds.

I find myself able to open up to Aaron (coworker crush) much more than I ever did with Andy. We also have loads more in common than I did with Andy. I am curious to see where we go. Will we friend zone each other, or are we on the path to a beautiful relationship? Only time will tell.

I have a lot of conflicting feelings about Andy, and I have for the last few months. On one hand I am excited to try for Aaron, but I am also sad to see Andy go. If things don’t work romantically with Aaron I am dreading having to go through the whole dating process over again. If things don’t work out, I am in no rush to meet someone new. I am just so sick of people I am close to moving away.

Breakfast of Champions

We had discussed the idea of me waking him up with head many times, however I was always either too shy to do so or the timing just wasn’t right (usually had to rush off to work when staying over on a work night). Last weekend I was determined to be brave enough. It had been a long time since we played and I needed it badly.

I woke up next to him and rolled over to spoon. As I glanced down I noticed his morning wood. That was the encouragement I needed. I began running my hand up and down the length of his body, feeling him all over, taking it all in. With each stroke I let my hand get closer and closer to his cock.

In a sleepy moan, he rolled over to his side facing away from me, but pulling my into a big spoon/little spoon position. He clutched my hand to his chest and went back to sleep. I snuggled against him, content to be in his arms. He finally let go of my hand and I began rubbing him all over again, getting a little bolder with my hand.

I let my hand linger around his cock, feeling what I had access to. As I felt him twitch alive again he grabbed my hand and pulled it to his chest again. I took that as a hint to leave him alone and snuggled up to him again. I admit, I was a little annoyed, but was understanding and patient.

A few minutes later he woke up and I commented about the heat in the room. He told me to go take a cold shower. Annoyed, I asked him if he thought I needed to cool off in more ways than one. He chuckled and said no, but that he was dreaming that I was feeling him all over. I told him it wasn’t a dream, but he kept pulling my hand away so I took a hint.

He said he didn’t realize that he stopped me in his sleep because he very much wanted me to continue. I grinned mischievously at him as we both adjusted ourselves so that I had access to his cock. I began by just rubbing through his pajama shorts, until his cock got hard.

Once he was hard, I slipped my hand inside to rub through his boxers. I reached inside the flap and gently pulled out his cock. I rubbed and stroked for a bit, until I stated that I wanted to suck it. He said that I could and freed himself from his shorts.

I excitedly curled up next to him and bent my head. I kissed the tip, then softly ran my tongue around before lowering my mouth onto him. I was so happy to have his cock in my mouth again. I massaged my tongue around him, while beginning to suck and move my head up and down his shaft.

I was very enthusiastic in my efforts, as I desperately wanted to make him come and taste him. Once I got a steady rhythm, I picked up my pace and suction. I could tell he was getting close, and I oh so desperately wanted to switch my rhythm and technique so that I could keep going, but getting him to orgasm was my goal. He said between breaths that he was close and I kept up exactly what I was doing. He started gently grinding his hips into my face. I followed his rhythm and kept going.

I finally heard the words I have been wanting to hear since we started dating. He was coming. He moaned the sexiest of moans and shortly after I felt his sweet, hot liquid shoot into my mouth. As his orgasm slowed down, I slowed down, making sure to clean every last drop. I swallowed easily and moved up to cuddle him some more. He held me, and we thanked each other.

“Now, how about we go find something for you to eat other than come?” he said jokingly.

I smiled and told him that I just had the breakfast of champions, full of protein. We giggled and cuddled some more before getting up to get dressed and starting the day.

Product Review – We-Vibe Bloom

I admit, I haven’t been good at remembering to do my kegels lately. When I do think about it, I do them. One reason I love kegel exercise toys is that they make me remember to do my kegels. I have only had one kegel toy from years ago, at least until the awesome people at Good Vibes sent me the We-Vibe Bloom free in exchange for my honest review.

The Packaging

Like all We-Vibe products, the Bloom comes with a satin drawstring pouch, USB charging cord, instruction booklet, a sample We-Vibe lube packet by Pjur, and the toy itself. The Bloom has three different weight attachments (10 g, 30 g, and 45 g), meant for gradual training of the kegel muscles.

The Product

The We-Vibe Bloom is waterproof and rechargeable. A full 90 minute charge can give up to 90 minutes of vibration. The Bloom features a low power light, meaning it will blink when it needs a charge, preventing (most) mid use deaths. The Bloom can connect via Blue Tooth to the We-Connect app. The Bloom is made of silicone, making it pthalate free. There is only one button, and it controls the power, speed, and settings. There are four speeds and 6 different vibration patterns. One of my favorite things about We-Vibe products is that if you turn the toy off at one setting, it turns back on on that same setting. I prefer this, as I tend to prefer only one setting on vibrators (steady and fast). It is easy to remove from inside with the help of the silicone retrieval cord. The weights are labeled as “1, 2, and 3,” making it easy to change weights.

The App

The app is great in theory, however lately I have been having connection issues. The connection problems have been happening with more than this toy though, so I think it needs a few bugs fixed. I found that I had to keep my phone next to the toy to keep the two connected, making it really hard for controlling via app. When functioning properly, the app can let you (or partner) control your toy. The app can change vibration modes, speeds, and pause/start vibration. Users of the app can create their own vibration settings. The app also features a text, voice, and video chat function to make communication with your partner easier.

Overall

Overall, I loved this toy, if not for the buggy app. While using, it was a great reminder to do my kegel exercises. Once fully inserted, I was able to go about my day while using the toy. I was disappointed by the fact that I was unable to fully test out the vibration features with the app. Every time I got the Bloom inside the app would disconnect from it. I used each weight for a week each. I will definitely continue using the We-Vibe Bloom, and hope that the app gets updated soon. Thank you so much Good Vibes for the chance to try this awesome toy.

Poem – First Kiss

I keep dreaming about our first kiss

One night you were hesitant and shy,

Slow, soft, gentle, and sweet

In all my dreams you are sweet

Another night, another dream

You were a little bit more confident, less shy

You kissed me with the passion that I have come to miss

Bold, strong, certain, and confident

Last night, the latest dream

We had our first kiss

This time we went farther than a kiss

I knew it was just a dream, but I went with it

Passionate, intimate, and sexy

Starting off slow and uncertain

Ending in blissful smiles of contentment

This is what I want, this is what I need

Our first kiss

Product Review – Noje W3 Mini Wand

I have a confession to make. I am not a huge fan of the original magic wand. It is just too buzzy and bulky for me. Don’t get me wrong, I love it on my sore muscles, but not so much for masturbation. It just always felt way too loud and so powerful it was buzzy rather than rumbly.. I hear the new rechargeable one is better, but I have yet to find out for myself. For the many reasons listed above, I was actually excited to try the Noje W3 Mini Wand by Blush Novelties. Peepshow Toys sent me this toy free in exchange for my honest review.

The Mini Wand truly is a mini wand. I was actually expecting it to be a bit bigger (then again, I didn’t look at the measurements when I saw it on the product page), but it actually was the perfect size. That said, the Mini Wand is only 5.25″ long and 1.25″ wide. It fits in the palm of my hand, and it surprised me again with how strong and rumbly the vibrations are. There are 5 steady speeds and 5 unique patterns. Patterns have never been my thing, as I prefer steady vibrations.

To turn on, hold the power button for 3 seconds. It will start on the lowest steady vibration. There is only one button, so keep pressing until you find the speed/setting you like. I personally don’t mind having only one button, as I tend to only like the highest steady vibration, but I know a lot of others might have an issue with it. Press the button again for 3 seconds to turn off the toy.

The Noje W3 Mini Wand is fully waterproof, quiet, powerful, and magnetic rechargeable. The body of the mini wand is made from plastic and the head has a removable silicone head. A full charge takes about an hour and a half, and that will give up to 1 hour of use, depending on what setting is being used. While charging, a white light will blink. Once charging is complete, the light will become steady.

Overall, I really enjoyed the Mini Wand. I found it very easy to hold while in use, however the head is a bit flexible. I found it most enjoyable to press the head against me to give added stimulation and pressure. Thank you Peepshow Toys for sending me this product! It will definitely see more use.

Product Review – We-Vibe Rave

I absolutely love G-Spot stimulation. That is why I was very excited to try the We-Vibe Rave from the awesome folks at Betty’s Toy Box. I received this toy free in exchange for my honest and unbiased review. The Rave is a rechargeable vibrating G-Spot dildo that can be controlled via buttons on the toy and/or smartphone app called “We-Connect.” The app is neat because you can connect to a partner or control it yourself.

Packaging

The We-Vibe Rave comes with USB charging cord, satin drawstring pouch, instruction booklet, and a sample lube packet by Pjur. The Rave is unfortunately not waterproof, but it is Splash proof.

The App

Downloading the free “We-Connect” app will give both you and your partner control of the Rave. The app allows you to use the pre-programmed settings or make your own. There are also three different chat functions to allow you to communicate with your partner: text chat, video chat, and voice chat. The boyfriend and I had a blast playing with all the different app settings. The connection is pretty clear for all three chat settings. However I am not sure if it was a bug at the moment, or if it was something wrong with my Bluetooth connection, but I had to keep my phone right next to the Rave to stay in control during solo play. I preferred the app over the buttons on the toy to control because I found the toy hard to press to change settings. The downfall to the phone (at the time) was spotty Bluetooth connection and getting lube and other juices on my phone.

The Toy

The Rave is made with the always amazing We-Vibe vibrations. It gives off strong, deep, and rumbly vibes. It is quiet, and easily muffled by blankets and/or pillows. Unfortunately it did not hit my G-Spot the way I liked. It wasn’t uncomfortable, in fact the toy itself felt nice, but I just didn’t feel like my G-spot was stimulated. The Rave is 7.6″ long and its widest point is 1.22.” It is made from 100% silicone that is velvety smooth.

Overall

Overall, the Rave is a great toy. Unfortunately it just didn’t hit my G-Spot the way that it was designed. It is still a wonderful toy, and it will still be used for fun, especially if my relationship goes long distance (which is a huge possibility). My partner and I had a blast with the app and its many different features and settings, nonetheless. I would give it a 3 out of 5 stars. You can get your own at Betty’s Toy Box. Thank you Betty’s Toy Box!

Product Review – Club Vibe 3.Oh

I am always on a hunt for the perfect wireless vibrator and jumped at the chance to review the Club Vibe 3.Oh for Good Vibes. I received this item free in exchange for my honest review.

Packaging: The Club Vibe 3.Oh comes with a USB charging cord, a small black satin storage bag, a One-Size thong, and a rechargeable remote with a wireless vibrator. The satin bag has enough room to fit the vibrator, remote, and thong comfortably. Adding the charging cord will make for a very tight fit, but it will fit. The thong has a sewn in pouch that holds to vibrator.

The Toy: The Club Vibe is a wireless vibrator with 3 different ways to make vibrations. There are three different modes (Tease, Groove, and Club). Unlike some other wireless vibrators, there is a 20 minute window that the vibrator will stay on (waiting for the remote to tell it what to do). It takes about an hour and a half to charge the remote and toy (separately, as there is only one cord) and a full charge will last for about an hour of play.

To turn the toy on, start by pressing the single power button on the vibrator and holding for three seconds. It will give a small buzz and the power button will blink to indicate that it is on. Once on, press and hold the power button for 3 seconds on the remote. the vibrator will come to life. Press each again for 3 seconds to turn them off. The LED lights will shut off in both power buttons and the vibrator will give 3 short bursts of vibration to indicate being turned off.

The Modes

Tease – To activate Tease Mode, press the arrow button. The toy will vibrate as long as the button is being pressed. Hold the Tease button to keep a steady vibration. Let it go to make it come to a complete stop. You can see why this would be called tease mode.

Groove – The Groove Mode button is third button down, with the squiggles. There are 5 different vibration patterns, starting with a steady vibration. Press again to change vibration patterns.

Club – Lastly, the final button is the Club Mode, which is the button with the speaker Icon. Club Mode picks up on voice and other sounds (particularly music). I had a blast placing the remote next to my speakers while listening to music. There are three levels of sensitivity to club mode, and cycling through them will increase/decrease the sensitivity. There is an LED light in the power button that will brighten as the sensitivity level increases.

This toy was a lot of fun to try out. Although the vibrations are too weak for me to really be able to get off, it is definitely a fun new staple to date night. I love to hand the remote to the boyfriend and let him take control through out the date. It is fairly quiet, so it would be hard to notice unless it was going  while in a room filled with silence. Unfortunately, the thong was way too small for me, though it could certainly fit “most.”

Thank you Good Vibes for letting me try this toy!

Product Review – Quad Silicone Whip

The Quad Silicone Whip was one of those things that I saw and had to have. I had never heard of it until I saw it in a list of available toys to review. I had been curious about getting something for whipping and trying it out with the boyfriend, and also it had been a while since I got a new dildo. The Quad Silicone Whip is a two in one, with a dildo handled silicone whip. The perfect two in one. I received this toy free from Good Vibes in exchange for my unbiased and honest review.

The Whipping End

The whip is made with four silicone strands with small weights at each end. With  a light stroke there is not much to feel, which is good for a beginner like me. For the more experienced, a harder stroke is ideal. However, one thing that we did notice was that the weights at the end needed to make contact to really leave a sting. The handle is very comfortable to hold. I love the feel of the soft silicone and the ridges make nice grips.

The Dildo End

The dildo is made of velvety soft silicone. There is not a whole lot of squish to it (though there is some) and it is not very flexible. There is a hint of a flared base, but I would not recommend this toy as anal safe due to the fact that there is such a small degree of flare (a lot less than toys that have a very prominent flared base).

All Together

From end to end, the Quad Silicone is 18 inches long. The insertable handle is 5 1/2 inches long, with the widest insertable diameter being 1 5/8 inches. Overall I feel like this is the perfect 2 in 1 toy. Thank you Good Vibes for letting me try this!

 

TMI Tuesday – Shame

Over the weekend I found these questions from Heelsnstocking in a very old email. The questions are great. I cannot believe they were not already published here on TMI Tuesday blog but my search did not find them. So here we go…Shame.

Shame

1. Tell us a sexual thing/fantasy would you never want your friends to know you like or have done?

I am still kind of embarrassed at my fetish/curiosity with pee. I may have mentioned it in a joking manor to test the waters with friends and potential partners, but they usually scoff in disgust so I play it safe and say I am joking.

2. Has anyone ever found an item of sexy underwear, a sex toy or perhaps a picture on your phone that embarrassed you?

Yes! On my 18th birthday I was home alone and was not allowed to go out or have friends over because my mom was out of town. I decided to spend my alone time masturbating. However, my friends decided to surprise me with pizza and cake. I couldn’t turn them away, so I let them in. Eventually they convinced me to leave the house to go to another friend’s house and one friend went to find and get my socks.

They found my socks, but not before finding my vibrator I had hastily thrown in my drawer when my unexpected company arrived. I was a little embarrassed, but that’s what they get for looking through my drawers.

3. Do you have any fantasies you could never go through with because you think you would feel ashamed?

Lately I have had a bit of a rape fantasy. I am terrified to touch on that one, even on here. I am unsure if I could ever play it out or even really write it out.

4. Have you ever felt shame after a sexual experience?

Pretty much every time I hooked up with Toby, back when I was first becoming sexually active. I always felt so used and alone after, yet kept letting him come back because curiosity got the best of me.

Bonus:  Share a recent non-sexual moment of shame.

Pretty much every time I make a small error at work during data entry.

Double Bonus: Share a recent sexual moment of shame.

The other night I took some boob pictures and sent them to the boyfriend. They went completely ignored, though he said he got them (when I asked a day later). Nothing else was said, no thanks, or please don’t send those again. I am a little hurt, and I have been building up to have a very serious talk with him.

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