Day 13, Post 13 – I originally wrote this post in September 23, 2017. Aaron and I had “officially” been together only 11 days. I am not sure why I never posted it. I think I got sidetracked because I kind of stopped posting all together for a while. The italics show my updates to what I wrote over 2 years ago.
I have to say, things with Aaron are better than I ever imagined they could ever be (and I imagined some pretty amazing things). Aaron himself is amazing, and he makes me feel amazing. He is still amazing, and I don’t know where I would be with him.
Things progressed a lot quicker than I thought they would, but I have loved every step we have taken together. It is almost scary (but more awesome) how much we have in common, we are pretty much always on the same page. I feel myself able to open up to him more than I have to anyone else, even my closest friends. In situations where I would usually feel shy or embarrassed, or even uncomfortable, I find myself able to feel completely natural with him, with little to no hesitation (and if there was hesitation it evaporates quickly). We have no secrets. Everything we have, we share. I hold nothing back when around him.
We have full chemistry, something I never completely experienced with anyone. I either experienced partial chemistry or no chemistry at all. With full chemistry, we can read each other emotionally and physically. Since being with him, my insecurities have lowered and my self confidence has risen tremendously. I am currently going through self image issues again, but Aaron has never once left my side.
I have given him the blog address. I just hope it doesn’t scare him off (though he promises it won’t). It has been a long time since I have been able to trust someone with my blog link. Some of my stuff I am proud of, but most of it I took as a really harsh lesson in life. Well, he reads everything I post and hasn’t run away screaming yet. If I want to post something that might bug him, I ask him about it first, and make sure he is aware and is ok about it.