Birthday Tease

After spending some time cuddling on his couch, we figured it was time to go for a dip. Once inside the hot tub house we stripped off all of our clothes. J got in first and I followed, taking his hand for support as I lowered myself in. He floated over to the opposite side and I followed, sitting next to him. Using my right hand to keep myself somewhat… Read More »Birthday Tease

Blindsided Pt. 2

We spent the next few weeks talking, and every Friday he would come over. The first Friday I invited him over for dinner and Game of Thrones, which he planned on introducing me to. I cooked him my specialty, a Mexican lasagna. I made sure to shave and groom in all the proper places. That is when I realized how much I had let myself go. It felt really good… Read More »Blindsided Pt. 2


I think I have mentioned before the wall I have put up a wall when it comes to people. I would still meet people on the occasional coffee date, but a second date was rare, and I was far from interested in letting them into my life as more than friends. A few good ones actually showed romantic interest (not just sexual) in me, but I closed myself off even… Read More »Blindsided

Pure Pleasure

The episode ended and we stayed there in each other’s arms. Neither of us wanted to get up to push play for the next episode. Throughout the show we had been slowly stripping each other until he was only in his thong, and I in my favorite red lingerie and panties. I smiled with content, letting my hand travel all over him, still learning his body. I slid my hands… Read More »Pure Pleasure


A little over a month ago I started talking to a guy on a dating site. We met up for coffee,  which turned into lunch and a movie. We saw each other once after that. He wanted to hang out again, but something didn’t feel right so I kept making excuses on why I couldn’t. I didn’t want to get rid of him altogether,  just in case it was just… Read More »Relief

Dating – Long Distance vs. Short Distance

Something I have been thinking about the past few years,  and even more about the past few months is long distance relationships vs. short distance (local) relationships. After a lot of thought,  I think I would enjoy the long distance much better, for a multitude of reasons. I feel much more comfortable online, first off, than I do in person. It takes a lot these days to get me comfortable… Read More »Dating – Long Distance vs. Short Distance

Bad Habits and Noncommittal Answers

In the past few years of dating (most times of meeting a person once or twice then only keeping things online or never speaking again), I have picked up some really bad habits. I have lost nearly all self confidence, but I think I have become unrealistically picky when it comes to finding a partner. As far as the self confidence goes, it comes and goes. It really comes when… Read More »Bad Habits and Noncommittal Answers

The Guys (Part 3) – The Southern Boy

Something felt too good to be true with SB. He was too sweet. However, I went with the flow because I was actually starting to feel better talking to him. Every morning when he woke up he would text me “Good morning beautiful.” It brought a smile to my face, especially when I started to believe him. It took a while of talking, but we finally had free time at… Read More »The Guys (Part 3) – The Southern Boy

The Guys (Part 2) – Rollercoaster

As I have said on Twitter and in my last post, things have been kind of an emotional rollercoaster for me. I have met more guys than I can count (both online and some eventually offline). Most of them aren’t worth giving a nickname on here, but the ones that lasted longer than others might be mentioned again later. Here I will attempt to give a breakdown on the ones… Read More »The Guys (Part 2) – Rollercoaster

The Guys (Part 1)- J Came Back

I was just starting to forget about J, thinking maybe he was finally done yanking me around. To my not so surprise I had a new friend request on Skype in early August from him. I got really excited, and added him with no thought or question of it. I talked to him, and we caught up on everything from the last ten months. He was out of town, but… Read More »The Guys (Part 1)- J Came Back