Exes

No Birth Control is Perfect

Day 5, Post 5 – I started this post nearly a year ago. It keeps staring at me, and its time I finish it. This is not going to be a pretty post. Content warning(s): suicidal thoughts, heavy depression, period blood, medication. I have been on a lot of different birth controls (off and on) the last 12 years, since I was 19. I have had the shot (Depo Provera),… Read More »No Birth Control is Perfect

The Good, the Conflict, and the Potential

I know that my updating has become quite sporadic, and I apologize. A combination of being busy (I have a social life now, believe it or not) and not much to say. I was paranoid about Andy finding my blog, though I don’t think he would have cared too much. As of last night, Andy and I are no more. He is moving out of the area and neither of… Read More »The Good, the Conflict, and the Potential

My Last Sexual Experience

**I have been trying to keep up the habit of writing and posting every day. I ran out of things to review and my sex life has been a bit lacking, so I googled “sex blog writing prompts.” I came across a set of 10 questions and prompts that pertain to sex.** 2. Write about your last sexual experience. How was it different from your first sexual experience? My last… Read More »My Last Sexual Experience

My First Sexual Experience

**I have been trying to keep up the habit of writing and posting every day. I ran out of things to review and my sex life has been a bit lacking, so I googled “sex blog writing prompts.” I came across a set of 10 questions and prompts that pertain to sex.** 1. Write about your first sexual experiences. Interpret sexual experience any way like, even it’s about you first kiss.… Read More »My First Sexual Experience

Preparation

I came to the realization the other day that everyone I have ever dated has prepared me for Andy. So far Andy is my favorite boyfriend That I have ever had, the best one I ever dated, etc. The biggest example I can think of is J. Andy and J are similar in the fact that they both have major ups and downs. The only difference is that Andy hasn’t… Read More »Preparation

Lessons in Geography 

We didn’t really have anywhere to go. No where private at least, that didn’t require money. Ready to take it a little bit further, test the waters, but not quite ready to bring the other home. We ended up meeting in the mall parking lot and go from there. When he pulled up next to me I got out to greet him. We hugged and kissed briefly, then decided to… Read More »Lessons in Geography 

Relief

A little over a month ago I started talking to a guy on a dating site. We met up for coffee,  which turned into lunch and a movie. We saw each other once after that. He wanted to hang out again, but something didn’t feel right so I kept making excuses on why I couldn’t. I didn’t want to get rid of him altogether,  just in case it was just… Read More »Relief

Slow Down

One thing I learned in my last relationship is to slow the fuck down. In every relationship I have always allowed it to move too fast. I always just went with the flow, but as fun as that can be at first, it can lead to a huge standstill, boredom, and broken promises. My first and only high school “relationship” lasted five days, but within the first day of meeting… Read More »Slow Down

Getting My Squirt Back

I squirted when I had my first orgasm. Not only did I not know that what I had was an orgasm, I thought I had pissed all over my floor and computer chair. I started making sure to pee and empty my bladder before masturbating, but I got the same wet and messy results. It wasn’t until I started reading blogs that I learned that squirting was a thing. I… Read More »Getting My Squirt Back