Horny

My new toys…

My new toys are fucking scary. They were bigger than I expected. If you haven’t been following my Twitter, I ordered the Tantus Cush and Flurry. I was so excited for them that I even held off on masturbating several nights in a row. When I got home Thursday the package was on my bed. I tore it open, and my mouth dropped. How the hell am I going to… Read More »My new toys…

Carefree

A few weeks ago I was feeling pretty miserable. It started when I went with my roommate to the mall and she went to the “diet store.” I went with her, and in there I felt feelings no one should ever feel about themselves. I walked out, nearly in tears, scared of the thoughts that crossed my mind. I went to the game store in hopes of finding a new… Read More »Carefree

Almost

As mentioned a few posts ago, J started texting me after nearly 6 months of silence. I flat out told him I didn’t trust him, that every time I start to think I will never hear from him again, I do. Then, just when I start to think things have changed and that he is more reliable, he disappears. I got tired of it. He told me he talked to… Read More »Almost

Ride

**This is another piece I started almost a year ago. I never had a chance to finish it before taking a break from blogging.** I have to say, I had some really good sex the other day. It wasn’t even planned sex, it just kind of happened. D came over to see the new place and just comfort me after having my window broken that morning. I gave him directions… Read More »Ride

Hopefully, Soon

***Below is a post I wrote last April about a time J and I met up and things happened…and didn’t happen*** It had been a long week. Just when I was starting to forget about J and try to move on, I started missing him like crazy, missing the things we did, missing how well we fit together. I had just come home from doing errands Friday night when I… Read More »Hopefully, Soon

Sweet Awakening (The End of a Dry Spell)

Last week September, I had just gotten in bed and was just settling down for sleep when I got a text. It was from D and I hadn’t heard from him in over a year. He asked me how I had been and I told him that I was ok, just been having a lot of ups and downs. When I asked how he was, he said that his girlfriend… Read More »Sweet Awakening (The End of a Dry Spell)

Rejection

Well, J didn’t cancel on me, as I half expected him to. In fact, things actually went really well up until the end, but more on that later. First, let me start at the beginning. He texted me just as I was finishing up getting ready, telling me to let him know when I was on my way. I texted back and told him I was going to my car… Read More »Rejection

Just in Case

So, J and I started talking again. It’s been off and on, but the last week it’s been every day. He seems better now. I will find out Friday if he’s changed. The plan is for me to go to his house to watch a movie and cuddle. I like this plan a lot. I am nervous and excited all at the same time. Sadly though, I feel like I… Read More »Just in Case