Rants

SB4MH – Boundaries

Content Warning – Fatshaming, Doctor’s Office. I really have only one major boundary, and that is to not talk about my weight or anything to do with weight. I am getting better about it, especially when I am the one to bring it up, but it is still a very sensitive topic for me. This post is about my struggles with doctors and the outside world. Back in December, I… Read More »SB4MH – Boundaries

Anxiety

Day 9, post 9 Content Warning: Anxiety, work stress, depression It was only recently that I realized my depression has always been accompanied by anxiety. I didn’t really put two and two together that what I was feeling about things I dreaded was anxious. My anxiety has been even more prelevant lately. It was when I started reading about other people’s issues with anxiety that I began to relate and… Read More »Anxiety

A Test of Sorts

The boyfriend is gone for nearly a month, and after this weekend he will be pretty much off the grid for almost 2 weeks. He is on his summer vacation, visiting family and friends down south. I miss him terribly, and it gets harder every day. We still manage to at least say good morning, but after that he usually gets busy and either doesn’t talk again til late evening… Read More »A Test of Sorts

It’s Complicated

I never really understood the point in saying a relationship was complicated. I used to figure it either was a thing or it wasn’t; the feeling are or they aren’t. At least until I didn’t understand up until now. Now I know it really can be complicated. It is not as easy as black and white. I am feeling like my relationship is drifting into complicated territory and I finally… Read More »It’s Complicated

Tool

I have a tool of a supervisor. I have no idea what to do, as I am in between a rock and a hard place. Our department has no manager. This is the casino’s solution to saving money. We have a supervisor with no training, no tact, and can be very unprofessional. Sometimes I feel bad for the guy because he gets everything dumped on him with no idea what… Read More »Tool

Slap in the Face

D was texting me the other night, saying that something interesting happened to him at work. He said it was a lot to text and would rather talk on Skype/phone or in person. A few days later he texted saying that really cute twins came into the store he worked at and flirted heavily. I rolled my eyes, thinking not much of it, though still a tad jealous. Later tonight… Read More »Slap in the Face