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The Search

I think the time has come to search for a new fuck buddy. Not really to replace D, as I still definitely want to keep fucking him, but as a back up since D has been a little preoccupied lately and I don’t know when he will want to hang out again. I am trying to stay positive and not think paranoid thoughts. I REALLY want to get laid. I… Read More »The Search

Nervous

I always get nervous when I think about being naked in front of someone for the first time. As one of my exes always said, the scariest thing is being naked in front of someone for the first time. For me, it doesn’t matter who it is, I get nervous. However, once they have seen me, it’s fine. I am learning to not be so self conscious around people. I… Read More »Nervous

Alone

The worst feeling is wondering when I will meet someone new. I hate not knowing. It could be today, next week, a month from now, a year from now. It could also be many years from now, even never. My room mate had me make an account with match.com. I hate it so far. I paid $120 for six months and it is a huge waste of money. I get… Read More »Alone

Sex Club

A few weeks ago I was talking to one of the guys that used to model in my figure drawing class. He was telling me about a party he went to the night before. He soon described it as a sex party. It turns out that the county I live in has a sex club. Once every so often they will sell tickets, then announce the location of the party.… Read More »Sex Club

Closer

Everytime I have sex with D, I think I come closer and closer to having an orgasm, whether it’s vaginal or gspot, I am not sure. This past Friday was no exception. Sitting against D, he whispers in my ear how good I smell. I thank him, and he replies with another whisper, “Wanna go back in my room and fuck?” he asks. “Hell yes!” I eagerly respond. We both… Read More »Closer

Update: A Little Bit of Everything

I apologize for my lack of posting. I really have no excuse, other than pure laziness (and lack of motivation). I have plenty of ideas noted to write about, so it wasn’t a lack of things to write about. I admit, I was mostly unmotivated because I was thinking “what’s the point, no one reads?” but then I checked my site counter, and it seems I had a lot of… Read More »Update: A Little Bit of Everything